I decided to lead with the above title just to put it out there. When you look at me, you might see someone who is a little overweight. My doctor looks at me and says, “If you lost 15 pounds that would make a world of difference.” She’s right of course. With a family history of early death due to heart problems and diabetes, I need to make sure my weight is where it should be. I have lost weight and gained it back and then some, I don’t know how many times. I may be only 30 or 40 lbs overweight, but it is affecting my ministry, relationships and my faith. If you are sitting here reading this and tell me to “Stop it! Stop eating!” Just like my favorite comedian Bob Newhart, I understand. I am actually laughing just thinking about it.
What God has been calling me to is perseverance. We can’t fail until we stop trying to succeed. “Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.”- Confucius
I am learning to keep trying and to not let depression and shame take root when I fail. Food addictions are one of the hardest addictions to overcome. We can’t quit cold turkey or we die. If we eat too much, we die. So the key to overcoming food addiction is moderation. Taking a little of our addiction and then telling ourselves no even though every other part of us says yes.
Today, I’m back on the band wagon. I’m taking that first step in spiritual warfare. My first step in obedience to God.
“Good and evil both increase at compound interest. That is why the little decisions you and I make every day are of such infinite importance. The smallest good act today is the capture of a strategic point from which, a few months later, you may be able to go on to victories you never dreamed of. An apparently trivial indulgence in lust or anger today is the loss of a ridge or railway line or bridgehead from which the enemy may launch an attack otherwise impossible (p. 132).” Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
I am believing my acts of simple obedience will compound on each other. I said simple, not easy.